TiMe ThRoUgH aN HoUrGlaSs

Saturday, July 26, 2008

but i guess if there comes a day when u really don't know who to choose between the both of us. I guess i will back out then, for he's better than me in many ways, and I believe that he can give you the happiness that you deserve more than I can.

I really like you. Your innocence, your kind-heartedness, your care for friends and your sweet little smile.

But the more I like you, the more i hate to let go. I know communication between the both of us have gone from bad to worse. I guess that kind of chemistry we had has been transferred to your other friend. I really wish we could be go back in time, to the days when we were more than just friends, when we could chat about almost everything in the world.

People told me to fight for my happiness, people told me to let go.

I didn't mean to say stuff to hurt you.

Your nonchalant style of reaction once leaves me in a confusion. i don't know if I should take a step forward, or slowly fade away.

I really appreciate the friendship that we have. And I do cherish it, even till today. But how about you? I guess ever since the other guy stepped into your life. Our friendship was never the same again. Less stuff exchanged, less stuff to talk about.

I guess i can feel that kind of lost you felt in the past, when I don't sms you or choose to 'ignore' you. It really sucks... big time. Every single time my phone vibrates or rings, all I hope to see are your replies. But somehow the replies I'm getting nowadays are not yours. I feel lost, but you are busy. I understand. But sometimes, it still bothers me when you will reply to other people's messages immediately when you receive them, while you will only reply to mine like an hour later or even half the day. I won't question you, cause this is your privacy, your discretion, and I totally respect it. have I lost that significance and importance in your life already? Have you really found someone else whom is also significant already? I don't know. I don't dare to think. "Don't think too much".. that's all I'm always told.

I'm sorry that I appear to be more emotional nowadays. I mean.. it's partly because of you.. but it's also because of work too. I'm just so sick and tired of school, i can hardly find any joy in it. Pardon me for all the complaints and emo msg that I send. I know it bothers you. Like what ira says: "nobody likes emo people", which I totally agree. And i believe that other guy can give you the funny bone that you are looking for.

Your everything still attracts me.

Even if one day I decided to let you go, I will not look for another girl. Not for the next 3 years, when I'm doing my IAP and serving my NS too. Till then, I guess you are the girl of my life still.

- i still love you.
by Dj Z @ 3:04 AM